Sunday, February 9, 2014

Life is a Learning Curve

Life has its highs and lows, ups and downs and boy let me tell you I was a part of it ALL. Towards 2014 I had a car wreck in a different state, got engaged to an amazing man, got into a heated argument with a family member trying to defend an innocent person they didn't like which led me and that person not speaking to each other anymore, had to let go of people that wasn't good for me. Everything that had happened I couldn't control it. No matter what I did to try to diffuse things it went wrong except my engagement.

God had to show me things, he had to show me people's real true colors. Sometimes I feel stupid for helping some people that don't want help but need it or care for it, I feel like a doormat because I'm so nice and people see that and take advantage of it. When I defend myself it either goes in my favor or blows up in my face, most of the time it blows up in my face. I also sometimes just grin and bare it to avoid conflict.

I've learned that some people are just not happy and you can't please everyone no matter what you do, they are just not happy. Some people are also out to ruin your happiness because they are miserable. I learn to stay away from those people regardless if they are close to me. I learned that some of my closest friends don't care for my happiness even when I was happy for them. I have this save everyone complex, I always want to save someone that needs help but I learned that you can't save everyone, as not everyone wants to be saved.

Everything happens for a reason and for a season. Life is life and it's full of surprises, twists and turns, life is too short you have to learn to live life to the fullest regardless of any circumstances good or bad or get rocks thrown at you, if you fall down get up, dust yourself off and try again. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.